Politics?

Observing the throng watching President Noynoy Aquino’s speech, I felt the sensation and the optimism in the clamouring hearts of the nation. So to speak, I consider Aquino’s reign and bureaucracy as a potential turning point for our nation. Since this time is of the new appointees, perhaps change that Aquino promised can take place. My parents, as murmured to me, were able to evoke the epoch of the late President Cory Aquino with the yellow crowd and banners.

I heeded a lot of promises from P-noy. Now that I am politically aware, I just can’t stop myself from thinking of the unending possibilities and uncertain events that can occur without the nation’s knowledge. Is he only excellent in the beginning? What will be the situation after 3 years? 6 years? Can he put rapid actions in his words?

In my modest opinion, the undertakings were satisfying. Though I have heard a lot of it from other leaders who declared only what people desire to hear, I am still positioning high with this diminutive hope inside me. The whole Philippines is here to watch his every move. The public will be able to tell apart when his actions are not anymore aligned with his promises.

Noynoy has not proven his aptitude in leading the nation. Within 6 years, I hope he would be able to keep up those assurances. I wish he will not limit himself with what he had sworn in his inauguration speech. I also anticipate his other plans that are not wicked for the betterment of the country.

At the end of the day, people, with the help of God, will have the final say in their lives. One must use the God-given wisdom in deciding for themselves. Since this is a new chapter for all of us, then why not instil for change? The country’s success does not depend on P-noy’s hands alone but also from us and from our Creator who has full control over us.

Will Never Forsake Me

"Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious
ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O Lord." Psalms 25:7 (NIV)

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How many times have I marred your heart? Tons, is it not? What were your verdicts that moment, Lord? Did you endeavor to leave me behind? Did you pronounce you were under par and consider necessary to let go of me? There was no denunciation, was it not? Who am I, Lord? You think I ought to have this? I have upset you a lot, haven’t I? Why did you conceal me in your wings?

Love. Simply love. It is all because of Your love for me, for us, for all you have breathed upon. Who else can offer that kind of love? None. You had the choice to abscond but you are not wicked. It is not in Your nature, Lord. You are more than keen to scamper behind us if we feel like running away. You are good and upright; You instruct sinners in Your ways. You are never failing to forgive. Tons for marring your heart… One mercy erases it all.

This is the type of love I have been probing for. I thought I would be able to find it in earthly possessions but you proved me wide of the mark, Lord. I thought every deed that I had done was not a big deal to every person who truly loves me. If only I listened to Your factual whispers. I am secured now, Father, for You incessantly screen my life from the fiery arrows of the enemies. My hope is in You. I will not get tired of following You.

U-Turn

February 23, 2002. William Cruzana received Jesus Christ as His Lord and Savior.

"Something's missing! Why am I drifting?" William inquired as he felt coldness in his heart.

"I'll do the things that will give me bliss!" He supposed. Confused, he tried doing every act on his own. He doggedly decided for himself without asking God to show him His will. He chose not to listen.

For years, he had become a witness of a life spiritually and emotionally drowning. I needed to be rescued, he thought. He knew it was not too late to start things up again. It would be hard to leave his past behind but he deliberated that nothing is unattainable with God. Blinded by the world and without him knowing, God had taken him for a personal encounter.

Finally after hurtful years he finally got back to his senses.. to Abba.

"Not 360° nor 90°. Take a 180° you hypocrite! You lack obedience!," he muttered to his entirety when he finally got dead beat of his life.

"I'm done with this! I will never come back to this kind of mess ever again!" he noted in his very aggravated manner. He gripped his old iPod and rummaged around to look for a song apt for the moment. He scrolled down and ticked on Rescue by Michael Gungor. Desperate for forgiveness, he started to shed tears to God as he felt the Holy Spirit setting his heart on fire.

"Forgive me, Father. I have hurt you. I never realized that I was no longer paying attention. I drifted away..." Tears surged like river as he spoke one by one the peccadillo he had committed. He asked God to absolve him as he repented. He knew then that He was forgiven because God is truly merciful.

God instructed him to read his Word. In book of Psalms, he found God's message.

Days have gone by.. He felt peace. Real love. He saw the colors of life. Then on, he witnessed the beauty of God's creation.

Months have passed.. He served God with all his heart. He declared that he is God's servant. He let God cover him as the enemy attacks him.

And now....

Refurbishment of This

This blog had turned out to be a means for me to release angst, wrath, depression, depression, depression, more depression, and mendacity brought by the foe. I am opting to update this site not to impress everybody or to lift up my name anymore. If you would look back and read my old posts, one will be able to notice the murky heart that I once had. I decided not to erase these absurd posts for I believe that those mark my past... a past that will not ruin me any longer. I am 98% sure that it will not revisit! The chains on my wrists had been unlocked by Jesus. I am free! Let's share God's faithfulness through this site!This is not ABOUT ME anymore, it is about God's name and fame...

A Letter For A Sick Great Man

"Jesus is our Lord and Savior; the One who values us that no man can ever be compared at. How? He died on the cross to save us from sins. Without that love, we will have eternal death. "

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Dear Otosan,

First of all, I want to tell you that I've been praying for you. The whole Ortigas family is praying for your quick recovery. I'm praying for your physical health and spiritual health. Tomorrow, we will fast and pray for the start of our Sunday service. I'll make it sure that we will include you and all those who are suffering from pain in our prayers. At first, I thought of praying only for your physical health but God told me through His Word to pray for your spiritual health as well. Spiritual and physical health both come from God's healing touch. He is my healer; He is your healer too! Whether it is sickness or spiritual, God is always there to show His plans, offer forgiveness and healing to us. We just always have to be in faith in order to receive that healing.

Remember that God is our rock that can't be moved by any who would harm us. God is also our fortress or place of safety where our enemies can't follow. He is our shield, strength of our salvation, and our stronghold. Whenever you would feel the pain, just look up to our God for He suffers with us. He has been with you since then. You know His promise? He will never leave you nor forsake you! In your sickbed, he sits beside you. He's actually everywhere. You can talk to Him if you want to. He's more than willing to hear you and speak with you. You have to willingly open your heart for Him to come in so that you can hear Him! I've always told myself to encourage those who are sick physically and spiritually to have faith in God. Moreover, if that person does not know Jesus yet, I will have him know Him. Jesus is our Lord and Savior; the One who values us that no man can ever be compared at. How? He died on the cross to save us from sins. Without that love, we will have eternal death. Consider these verses: "For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus, Our Lord." Romans 6:23. "For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life" John 3:16.

Jesus is offering you a new life and a new beginning. He does not only give us an exciting life here on earth, but also one day he'll take us to heaven to be with him forever. You can receive Christ's payment for your sins. Then you will be forgiven and made right with God. It's not complicated at all. First, accept that Jesus is our Lord and Savior. We should admit that we are a sinner who needs God's forgiveness. Next, repent of our sin, then trust God to give you a new heart and eternal life. If you've done that, you are spiritually healed. As for your physical sickness, trust and trust and trust God that you will be well soon... Just as we believe that God will deliver you and support you in the fight against Cancer. We love you Otosan! We are so much delighted with your family.

- William Cruzana, Jr.

A Prologue for My Future Baby

My angel, the one that I have waited for; I want to tell you how gratified I am to finally have you. My eagerness to do well in work and studies would not have been fully rewarded without you. I have worked stiff enough for you my little seraph. I would go home immediately from work excited because I truly love to be with you and your stunning mother.

I made this one a long time ago when I was still praying for a wife and whilst listening to my favorite piano track which is entitled Memories in My Eyes and by Yiruma. What joy and excitement did it bring when I started to think of you and your mom! I told myself then, in the future, what will the world mean to me without a wife and our cherub cuddling beside me?

Please take note of what I am going to utter. I only have one penchant for you, my child. You should trust and obey the Lord in everything you do. Why only that? I know once you have entirely understood what I said, every superior thing will tag along naturally. I believe that you would be the sweetest kid, one that is responsible in her studies, and obeying child because you are devoted to our God.

Even though I am your father, do not imitate my life before I wholly surrendered my life to the Lord. Your daddy, regrettably, was enticed by the world before and I do not want you to experience such gruesome incident in your being. Live a life that is pleasing to the Lord. Fix your eyes on Jesus Christ. Obey us for we know what is best for you. I promise that your mother and I will always be there for you. I will prove to everyone that you deserve to be in this loving family. As your father, I will surely provide your every need whether financially, emotionally, just everything you want my dear, for I know God will justly bless us. You are the most precious gift man could ever receive. I thank God for granting such an adorable baby. Obey God and you will have a very pleasing life.

P.S. Your mom and I really love you with all our heart and soul. Be a good person and enjoy your stay in the world!

We Are Blessed

"I always deem of how they would live in the future when they cannot move forward both of their feet to the gush of the existent world."

Sometimes, I could not stop weighing myself against other people. I carry it out in the most dejected point in my life. It is not that I am not at ease with what I have in life bearing in mind the fact that my parents never fall short to provide. The purpose of that is not to take the life of other people who I compare myself with but to make me grasp that I am truly blessed.

In the process of realizing my significance, I always draw closer to the situation wherein I happen to be aware of the situation of the poor sector of the society. I always deem of how they would live in the future when they cannot move forward both of their feet to the gush of the existent world. I constantly ask myself if I could aid them with their current situation. I discern that I can, I’m just waiting for that chance to come and amend me to become a better person.

I am really frightened of what the future has for me. I would have to endure a lot of risks to carry on. If I, who study really hard now to prepare myself for the real battle, am uncertain of what will happen to me, what more for these people who are not sure of their lives in the present? How will they survive in the future if they cannot make a better plan for themselves in the present? How sad, isn’t it? But it is the veracity.

The documentary film of Ateneo entitled “Minsan Lang Naging Bata” made me think profoundly of how education revolves in all of us who are auspicious to have it. We, who are components of a respected academe like San Beda, should be gratified that we would not need to spare a time for work just to earn a living. Moreover, we must be more grateful that we did not become victims of child labor unlike those kids in the film who were forced by their parents to trade their education for work.

Such learning gives us a better possibility of getting hold of a brighter future. Once a person is successful in his fulfillment for a program in an institution, lots of job-opportunities and higher pay-schemes come into place as a result of the rigid work. However, if you were not able to embrace your guts, then you are wasting the opportunities that you could have had. If such things happen, look around. Think of others who aspire for your position more than you do.

As for now, when we all have is a diminutive idea of the circumstances that might take place in the next few years, we should be true to our principles in life. One must not be a mediocre in his/her studies. The purported excellence is not just for ourselves who study hard but also for our loved ones who for all the time succor us, the community where we fit in, and our future family that we envision. Above all, being true to our God-given education is itself a means of reverence to the Lord who blesses us all for here and eternity.

Sabaw Moments

Forced Early Bird

"Son... Gising na. Magrereview ka na. Dali!"

Dad did not stop shouting. He harshly shouted.. 'cause I won't be up in a snap if he didn't.

So there... He woke me up from a deep sleep, where I dreamt of lovely beaches, tireless parties, and all the more fun stuff I am familiar with.

"Darn. Panaginip nga naman. Crap. Finals week na pala."

It was a Monday morning. I had down pat that my mom's not home. I knew 'cause I felt literally cold. If mom was there, she would not allow the cold air, that comes with the aircon, to fill the room beyond the crack of dawn.

"Dad, no, 1:30 pa ang pasok ko..."

I took a glimpse at the wall clock and noticed it was only 6 o' clock in the morning.

"Badtrip. Sayang yung tulog ko." Then I tried to sleep again.

... "Ouch!" I recovered from a sleep in a snap again. "Malas! Puteks." My head hardly played with my bed's sarcastically comfy headboard. Thanks a bunch for the pain! I was kind of a freezing-statue in a moment. I then thought of my to-do list which I deem to be like an abuse for my body. Whilst at that moment, I looked at the aged-clock and found out that it was only 7:30 in the morning. I attempted to sleep but my eyes were wide open like those of an owl.

"Darn. Maybe this day's going to be really unlucky. I hope not."

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Informative Graffiti

After being done with my morning rituals, I headed to the study room to do something valuable for my car. I opened my computer, then iTunes, then burned a CD.

"Burn, successful! I have new songs for my car. I won't be sick with Situations, Breathing, etcetera etcetera and so forth."

My sister had spoken... "DAD! What's this?! ... Mom's gonna be really mad!" Dad, who was lying snugly on the couch watching his favortie news show, was silent, as usual.

"Will! Tignan mo to!" I hurridly walked to my sister and saw what she was ranting about. In the kitchen tile, above the sink, a reinforcement statement was written in bold and bloody red pen...

A - 10 - SHUN

AS PROMISED,

CLEAN AS YOU GO.

- PAPA

"Dad! magagalit si mommy! Pentel pa ginamit mo!"

"Wala naman mommy mo. Tawagan mo sa Taiwan at magsumbong. Don't worry anak. Nabubura yan. Ayan ah, maghugas bago umalis ng hindi mahirapan si Ludy."

"Yeah, right. Oo nalang." I tried and, factual... rid-off by damp water.

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THEOLOGY and its "supposed to be Group work"

10:00 A.M. - Our conversations through text were...

"Dude, William here, how's our Theo na?"

"Dala ka ng laptop and CD. I could not send the output sa email mo e."

"Oh? For what? USB nalang. Ketch... Copy ko nalang using USB."

"For Theo" (What? Of course, I know swempre!)

"I know, bakit kailangan? Nagawa na ba ang video? Okay meet nalang at 12pm. I'm here pa sa house."

"Now nalang tayo magkita." (HUH? 10am na, can't fly.)

"Dude, di pa ako nakakaligo. 11:30 nalang."

As agreed, I'll be getting the output of the contents, that my Theomates should have done last Saturday. I drove really fast overtaking those big yet turtle-like trucks from my house to Mendiola so as to be true to my words regarding my time of arrival at San Beda.

I saw them sitting and cramming near the grandstand. They welcomed me nicely. Their place was filled with crumpled reviewers and techy laptops.

They all smiled at me. "Hello kuya!"

"Hi! Tara. Copy ko na yung ilalagay ko sa video."

"Kuya, wala pa kaming ginagawa. Hindi dumating si Ketchup nung Saturday e. We texted him pero hindi siya nagrereply" My senses wanted to disbelieve of what I have heard. I looked at Ketchup and he was smiling hugely to somehow conceal his wrong deed. I asked again. "Di kayo nagkita nung Saturday? Anong lalagay ko sa video?" "Ayun na nga, kuya." We all paused for a while. Another girl has spoken.. "Ay kuya. Nagsubmit na lahat ng grupo. Ngayon daw pala deadline nun. Ay tapos. Nagquiz kami kanina. 30 items. First and last quiz natin for the finals." I did not even give comment. My nerves were idle and my mouth could not murmur a word.

Relieved for a while, I said.. "Guys, ask kayo ng extension kay ma'am." We had nothing to do and waited till 1:30. We parted and went to the buildings where each has a class.

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Good things

1:30 P.M. I was not late, fortunately. I asked one of my classmates in Business Mathematics of what were we having at that very moment. "We're going to have our final test today." I just said thanks and rested my wits for a second. I then deemed.. "I wish I had passed the pre-final exam."

Everybody was not at their usual state. Our professor, who was in an elegant violet corporate attire, banged the door. "Guys, we won't have our finals today. I could not locate the test papers. We'll have it on Thursday. Before we leave, I'll make an announcement first." I was really really really interested.

"Cruzana, Ranai, Imperial... You are exempted from taking the test."

"Sweet! Saya."

A seatmate had spoken, "Talino talaga nito oh. Galing. (Ehem. HAHAHA. Hindi naman!)"

I went out of the classroom and headed to the faculty room. I talked to our Theo prof about our video. Sweet! Dude! She permitted us to pass our work tomorrow, 17, which is my favorite day. She also allowed me to take the quiz tomorrow at 10:30. I drove home without the expected long face. I also had in mind the song Fortune favors the brave. Oh well, it was super highschool. Good idea! Highschool should take me back! Nahhrway.

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Guess this is long enough. I have produced tired readers, I suppose. Thanks for reading. Now I'm gonna review for tomorrow. Have fun tonight.

- William

Mahabang Blog

HELLO.

My mom’s departing to Taiwan today. Like GIVE ME A BREAK! She did not even give emphasis as to when she would leave.

MONDAY - Mom: Di'ba I have told you already that I'll go to Taiwan for a corporate meeting? It would be on a Sunday.

FRIDAY - Mom: Kids, I'm gonna leave on Sunday.

And just last night, SATURDAY, in Shangri-La - Mom: Bukas na pala ang alis ko. Parang 'di ako excited.

Today, SUNDAY, the very date of her departure - Mom: Yan! Excited na ko. (WHAT?! Dun lang siya naexcite?)

Ako naman. WAIT. WHAT? Tomorrow na ba yun? Now that I believe that I'm HEALTHIER, my main concern is this.. WHO'S GOING TO COOK?

Those that have potentials:

Not our super tamad stay-in, stay-out maid. Why call her a helper if she could not even perform her function? Laba, hugas, plantsa (then sunog mga damit 10x)... Is that a maid? MAN! I'm not complaining but, di'ba, why not add cooking? Kahit yun lang! Enough. She's scary nga pala. Goosebumps.

My dad... ASAAAAAAAAAA BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! No Comment. Scientist kasi dad ko e. Like he puts gulay in an Adobo dish. What can you say?

My aunties...

Mom did ask my titas to cook for us. My two titas declined for some whatever reasons. Al--right---. Fine.. Thanks anyway..

Okay. So settled. My Tita Hazel, mother of uber kulit Henri, volunteered. Thank you. Thank you. So much. So much. TO THAT! You'll have a reward! Food is like the most important what-so-ever-need for me right now. Kidding aside, there, we won't have a problem anymore. Somebody who is fortunately a wife of a chef is gonna cook for us! YEHES YEHES YEHES! No more payat moments. Wait, am I too obsessed with foods? So be it.

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On the other hand................ HAPPY NAMAN.

I'm getting more and more and more and more and more and more and more excited for March 27 to come. My sister's, of course, is going to graduate. Assumptionista's success, I would say. AND - - - - - - - - - My GUYS, Erika, Mae, Cheng, Jhela, Armand, Ken, and the other two, will go to PUERTO GALERA! A first for me, anyway. We will be staying at Buri Resort and Spa, which is like a WOW one, for 3 days and two nights. And of course the beach party, homme and femme.

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Mom just.. kissed my cheek.. and said Bye. See you Thursday night. Okayyyyy. I'll miss her.

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That's all folks. Thanks for reading. I'll review na for the final exams. :D Happy Summer!!

Mom

I love you. :)