New Year's Resolution (2007)

I just want to make this post straightforward. I just want to say my humble thoughts seriously. With the so called "I am" right now. I don't know wether what's inside me is merely sadness, or worst, depression already.

The story of my flopping carreer. . .

I was a Popular Sanguine. I was lively. . . Undeniably humorous, shows my bright teeth so often, and walks starkly. The real poise of a popular guy. Now, I can't understand this obsession. With the Personality Test I took this morning, I therefore and unexpectedly became a Perfect Melancholy. Meaning, I am now a perfectionist. I am supposed to have things right, a perfect loner, a reel sober.

I have been too unhappy or worst, depressed lately. Things that I used to do were changed steadfastly. So to speak, but I'm so tired of thinking. Problems, though it is not with my family, have taken over me for the past few months. My interest and my perception are changing. I'm starting to love hard rock right now like the songs of Linkin' Park, Korn, Metalingus. I think I'm alianated by them. Plus, being gothic seems fine to me now, though it scares me even before.

Bitchy, isn't it?! But despite the fact, you know what I want with myself now? I keep on holding my faith. With God, placed centered inside my heart, always here to be my torniquet.

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Though it's already late to publish it here, I protected a list of my New Year's Resolution. Wanting all of these to happen, will surely make me happy and alive like a rain, all of the sudden, fell over a useless drought. . .

1. I hate beer. So I must still hate beer. Wine lang! he, he.!
2. Bring back my affection to those stupid love songs. :-D
3. Bring myself closer to God. Joining the youth ministries at CCF will surely void your thirst.
4. Forgive the worst motivator I've ever met. Si Baba. Lol! Bitter! but I mean it.
5. Accept what is already there. The word is "Appreciation."
6. Love Rock, but not praising them.
7. Be "Medyo Matipid". Ha,ha. I can't even remember what's the English term for that. Di kasi ako marunong niyan. LOL.
8. Have time for exercise.
9. Stop eating Lays and Pringles. Junk foods are bad. :-P
10. Eat fruits. All of those are good for our health!
11. Lessen my habit of eating of Ice Cream.
12. Stop my soon-to-be unconcious feet from that amiable mall strolling alone.
13. Grab my guitar then be a professional guitarist.
14. Wait for mom and dad's decision and not force them for having a next non-stop Out-of-Country. :-)
15. I want to have my own car. But, I have to convince myself that it must be green, not the dull black. And have it at the right time.
16. Stop eating chocolates for it might make my face greasy. Zits were gone! have to maintain it.
17. Starbucks's Coffee is tasty and aromatic. But I should lessen my uncontrollable drinking of it.
18. Stop saying the words. "You're a slut!", "You're a freaky hoax!", "Ok, it's fine with me. . .(Walk away slowly, then whisper, "That bitch!") Ha, ha!
19. Do what my derma is telling me. Bawal na matigas ulo.
20. Try not to have a fistfight. I should hold my temper.
21. Excel in studies. Though it is soon for me to graduate HS, I should do things better. Honors! Thank you. :-P
22. Bring back the old and happy me.