Will Never Forsake Me

"Remember not the sins of my youth and my rebellious
ways; according to your love remember me, for you are good, O Lord." Psalms 25:7 (NIV)

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How many times have I marred your heart? Tons, is it not? What were your verdicts that moment, Lord? Did you endeavor to leave me behind? Did you pronounce you were under par and consider necessary to let go of me? There was no denunciation, was it not? Who am I, Lord? You think I ought to have this? I have upset you a lot, haven’t I? Why did you conceal me in your wings?

Love. Simply love. It is all because of Your love for me, for us, for all you have breathed upon. Who else can offer that kind of love? None. You had the choice to abscond but you are not wicked. It is not in Your nature, Lord. You are more than keen to scamper behind us if we feel like running away. You are good and upright; You instruct sinners in Your ways. You are never failing to forgive. Tons for marring your heart… One mercy erases it all.

This is the type of love I have been probing for. I thought I would be able to find it in earthly possessions but you proved me wide of the mark, Lord. I thought every deed that I had done was not a big deal to every person who truly loves me. If only I listened to Your factual whispers. I am secured now, Father, for You incessantly screen my life from the fiery arrows of the enemies. My hope is in You. I will not get tired of following You.

U-Turn

February 23, 2002. William Cruzana received Jesus Christ as His Lord and Savior.

"Something's missing! Why am I drifting?" William inquired as he felt coldness in his heart.

"I'll do the things that will give me bliss!" He supposed. Confused, he tried doing every act on his own. He doggedly decided for himself without asking God to show him His will. He chose not to listen.

For years, he had become a witness of a life spiritually and emotionally drowning. I needed to be rescued, he thought. He knew it was not too late to start things up again. It would be hard to leave his past behind but he deliberated that nothing is unattainable with God. Blinded by the world and without him knowing, God had taken him for a personal encounter.

Finally after hurtful years he finally got back to his senses.. to Abba.

"Not 360° nor 90°. Take a 180° you hypocrite! You lack obedience!," he muttered to his entirety when he finally got dead beat of his life.

"I'm done with this! I will never come back to this kind of mess ever again!" he noted in his very aggravated manner. He gripped his old iPod and rummaged around to look for a song apt for the moment. He scrolled down and ticked on Rescue by Michael Gungor. Desperate for forgiveness, he started to shed tears to God as he felt the Holy Spirit setting his heart on fire.

"Forgive me, Father. I have hurt you. I never realized that I was no longer paying attention. I drifted away..." Tears surged like river as he spoke one by one the peccadillo he had committed. He asked God to absolve him as he repented. He knew then that He was forgiven because God is truly merciful.

God instructed him to read his Word. In book of Psalms, he found God's message.

Days have gone by.. He felt peace. Real love. He saw the colors of life. Then on, he witnessed the beauty of God's creation.

Months have passed.. He served God with all his heart. He declared that he is God's servant. He let God cover him as the enemy attacks him.

And now....

Refurbishment of This

This blog had turned out to be a means for me to release angst, wrath, depression, depression, depression, more depression, and mendacity brought by the foe. I am opting to update this site not to impress everybody or to lift up my name anymore. If you would look back and read my old posts, one will be able to notice the murky heart that I once had. I decided not to erase these absurd posts for I believe that those mark my past... a past that will not ruin me any longer. I am 98% sure that it will not revisit! The chains on my wrists had been unlocked by Jesus. I am free! Let's share God's faithfulness through this site!This is not ABOUT ME anymore, it is about God's name and fame...

A Letter For A Sick Great Man

"Jesus is our Lord and Savior; the One who values us that no man can ever be compared at. How? He died on the cross to save us from sins. Without that love, we will have eternal death. "

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Dear Otosan,

First of all, I want to tell you that I've been praying for you. The whole Ortigas family is praying for your quick recovery. I'm praying for your physical health and spiritual health. Tomorrow, we will fast and pray for the start of our Sunday service. I'll make it sure that we will include you and all those who are suffering from pain in our prayers. At first, I thought of praying only for your physical health but God told me through His Word to pray for your spiritual health as well. Spiritual and physical health both come from God's healing touch. He is my healer; He is your healer too! Whether it is sickness or spiritual, God is always there to show His plans, offer forgiveness and healing to us. We just always have to be in faith in order to receive that healing.

Remember that God is our rock that can't be moved by any who would harm us. God is also our fortress or place of safety where our enemies can't follow. He is our shield, strength of our salvation, and our stronghold. Whenever you would feel the pain, just look up to our God for He suffers with us. He has been with you since then. You know His promise? He will never leave you nor forsake you! In your sickbed, he sits beside you. He's actually everywhere. You can talk to Him if you want to. He's more than willing to hear you and speak with you. You have to willingly open your heart for Him to come in so that you can hear Him! I've always told myself to encourage those who are sick physically and spiritually to have faith in God. Moreover, if that person does not know Jesus yet, I will have him know Him. Jesus is our Lord and Savior; the One who values us that no man can ever be compared at. How? He died on the cross to save us from sins. Without that love, we will have eternal death. Consider these verses: "For the wages of sin is death but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus, Our Lord." Romans 6:23. "For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son that whosoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life" John 3:16.

Jesus is offering you a new life and a new beginning. He does not only give us an exciting life here on earth, but also one day he'll take us to heaven to be with him forever. You can receive Christ's payment for your sins. Then you will be forgiven and made right with God. It's not complicated at all. First, accept that Jesus is our Lord and Savior. We should admit that we are a sinner who needs God's forgiveness. Next, repent of our sin, then trust God to give you a new heart and eternal life. If you've done that, you are spiritually healed. As for your physical sickness, trust and trust and trust God that you will be well soon... Just as we believe that God will deliver you and support you in the fight against Cancer. We love you Otosan! We are so much delighted with your family.

- William Cruzana, Jr.